Addiction

I suffer in silence.

The whiskey numbs my face and eases my worries.
This drink is the only thing that will ever understand me. The burn that comforts while destroying me from the inside. 
I just need this one drink and then no more, just this one drink will make everything better. 
They tell me, stop the drinking, it’s killing you.
But how do I stop?
One day at a time, just today don’t have that drink. 
And so just today, I don’t drink. 
Just today I am free from that drink. 

I suffer in silence. 

The smoke fills my lungs and slows my heart. 
This cigarette is the only thing that will ever understand me. The smoke that comforts while destroying me from the inside.
Just need this one cigarette and then no more, just this last puff and everything will be better. 
They tell me, stop the smoking, it’s killing you. 
But how, how do I stop? 
One day at a time, just today you don’t have to smoke.
And so for just today, I don’t smoke.
Just today I am free from that drink, free from that cigarette. 

I suffer in silence. 

Her touch warms my leg and blood rushes through my body. 
This touch is the only thing that will ever understand me. The touch that comforts while destroying me from the inside.
I just need her touch and nothing else, just this one night and everything will be better. 
They tell me, stop the promiscuity, it’s killing you.
But how do I stop? 
One day at a time, just today you don’t need to find comfort in her arms. Just today you don’t need to be validated. 
And so today I make it without a drink, without a cigarette, without the touch of a false lover. 

I suffer in silence.

A smile forces it’s way onto my face.
This smile is the only thing that will ever understand me. The smile that comforts while destroying me from the inside
I just need to smile and everything will be alright. 
They congratulate me. 
Free from drinking.
Free from smoking.
Free from fucking.

Free to suffer in silence, one day at a time.